Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Moving Forward

I don't know exactly when it happened but all of a sudden I have a toddler. I look at Henry and there is very little baby and a whole lot of kid in him. A year ago the thought of Hendrix moving past his infant stage was terrifying, heartbreaking, gut wrenching. I have to admit that I'm shocked by how much I LOVE this new phase. Sure, I miss the days of of his infancy but I can't get enough of this little human. His personality is really fun, very goofy and silly. The give and take of our relationship is lovely. I get responses and emotions from him. We communicate even though he can not yet talk. (He can however make just about any animal noise)

.I have gone on and on in this blog about all the things I love about my son. Now? I can list all these new and amazing discoveries I make about him everyday. Each day that he grows is like a new door opening with a surprise behind each one.


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He loves music and dancing, taking showers with his Daddy, and jumping on the bed with his Mama. He likes story time at the library but hates sharing the toys with other kids. He can climb up the stairs by himself, hoist his little body onto the bed, and act out the Itsy Bitsy Spider.

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and as he learns how to turn on the TV, throw his sneakers in the half full bath tub, and to run, not just walk, I can't help but reflect on what a journey it's been. I can't help but ponder how on earth did we get here? Where this is just life. I'm just a mom. No big deal. When you first become a parent its like your heart explodes with all the new feelings and then? Life happens and you get used to having all this love in your life and things just roll on forward. I swear, I'm gonna blink and he'll be off to kindergarten.

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The other day we killed some time in a book shop and I found this really sweet book titled "If I could keep you Little" by Marianne Richmond. It pretty much summed it all up. In the words of a parent to their child, they talk about how lovely it would be to keep them little but then they would miss out on all the amazing new things their kiddo was doing



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Some sweet quotes from the book..


If I could keep you little,
I'd decide on matching clothes.
But then I'd miss you choosing
dots on top and stripes below

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Henry at Story Time.
Side Note:WHY is that dad so miserable?


If I could keep you little
I'd cut your bread in shapes.
But then I'd miss you finding
"Hey! I like ketchup with my grapes!"


.If I could keep you little,
We'd finger paint our art.
But then I'd miss you creating,
Stories from your heart.






It really made what I was feeling come alive. It gave it a place. I know that I can't get these days back so I suck up every second. I try not to take them for granted. I love where we are headed. I am excited for the endless possibilities of my son's budding personality. I can't wait to see whats up around the bend...

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I can't stop time. I can't pause his childhood. All I can do is learn from it, grow with him, move forward.

10 comments:

  1. Great. Tears before noon. Thank god they're the good kind ;).

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  2. i feel like every time i sit down to write, i end up writing about this. guh.

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  3. Yea i kind of obsess about it. its hard to let go of. I feel like im always mourning the baby that was here just a few months, weeks, even days ago. it goes by so fast.

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  4. Love that book. Don't worry it just keeps on getting better and better as they get older.

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  5. and that feeling never really goes away ...
    on a sidenote: does your cat always hang out by the bathtub?! that's the most adorable and ridiculously funny thing i've seen all day. hahaha ....

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  6. this is such a sweet post! they grow so fast. i pinch myself that i am just days away from having a 3 year old. it's overwhelming and wonderful all at once.
    by the way he is soooo gorgeous. like stunning. for real.

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  7. my cat is OBSESSED with the bath tub and shower. every time we bath/shower he stalks us till we leave the room and then he licks all the water up. he is a FREAK.

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  8. that poem straight up made me cry!

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  9. You really need to stop making me cry!!! Hendrix is so friggin cute. Isn't it the greatest thing ever?

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